When
I was a child, I could not trust anyone. I thought that people always wanted to
hurt me. This is understandable being that my caregivers trusted everyone with
their precious treasure that being me. I strongly believe that children should
be considered the most valuable treasures in the world. As I continued to grow my
environment was a breeding ground for abusers, the abused, sexual perpetrators
and their victims of sexual abuse, I learned to trust in me alone. No one would
believe me, a little girl of five years of age that people were doing bad things
to me that so I stopped talking and started taking care of me. How many of you
have felt that way in your life at some point or another?
If
you have been a victim of childhood traumas, sexual abuse, rape, molestation,
pastoral abuse and even spousal sexual abuse, you may have learned not to trust
anyone and sometimes Christ falls into this category. For a long time, I was
guilty of not trusting in the Lord because of resentment and rebellion. In 1996
I began to forgive everyone who abused me as a child and as an adult but when I
would even think about returning to Christ, I would rather die before I forgave
him. Sadly, this went on for a long time but then in 2002 while in the occult
someone began to pray for me along with others in her church. It was in the
Spring of 2004 that the Holy Spirit shook my spirit in such a way that I could
no longer refuse Him. I had to come to Christ and ask him for forgiveness for
allowing myself to think that Christ never cared for me. Behind that faulty and
misguided thinking was none other than Satan and his demons. When we have been
abused, we can fall prey to Satan and his minions.
The
demonic spirits work hard to keep us in bondage through our feelings. In fact,
author Roger J. Morneau writes: “The spirits would
encourage people to listen to their feelings instead of the word of Christ and
His prophets. In no surer way could the spirits obtain control of people’s
lives without the individuals realizing what was happening. The spirits would
suggest all kids of erroneous doctrines and ideas, and humanity would readily
accept them because they felt strongly about them.” Roger J. Morneau, A Trip into the Supernatural, Review and
Herald 1982, p. 43
Once
I allowed the Holy Spirit to come into my life, I was able to trust in Christ
because my mind was renewed in Him. I was not about to let my feelings dictate
my life. You see, my feelings were faulty and by being faulty, I was not
seeking Christ. My mind was disturbed and taxed by the onslaught of years of
abuse. I needed my mind to be overhauled through the Holy Spirit and only
Christ could do this. The Bible says “And be not conformed to this
world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove
what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.” Romans 12:2
It is through the leading of the Holy Spirit that he guides us
into learning more about Christ and His promises but we must have a willing and
learning heart. If you are struggling with forgiveness, rebellion and
bitterness because of past hurts, know this…Jesus knows your pain. No matter
what you have done as a result of your abuse, Christ is waiting with open arms
but we must do our part, the Bible says “Then Peter said unto them, Repent,
and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission
of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. For the
promise is unto you, and to your children, and to all that are afar off, even
as many as the Lord our God shall call.” Acts 2:38-39
Did you catch that? Once we “repent, and be baptized ever one of you in
the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the
gift of the Holy Ghost” and this is truly a gift indeed. Freedom in and
through Christ is achieved through the gift of the Holy Ghost. I keep saying
trust the process and it is true. Trust is a process that does not sprout
overnight but in and through Christ by his gift of the Holy Ghost that he gave
us when Jesus ascended into Heaven.
If you look at the picture that I
provided today introducing this post, you will see vines and grapes. If you
look closely, you can see real grapes verses fake grapes. When we come to
Christ, the world will know who we are by our fruits that we bear and
forgiveness, longsuffering, patient and other fruits will separate us from the
fake fruit. The Bible says that we can bear fruit through Him and good news… we
are “I am the vine; you
are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit;
apart from me you can do nothing” John
15:5 superficial trust is fake fruit and it is carnal thinking. As long
as our fickle feelings last, they sway back and forth like sea waves. If we let
our feelings to govern us because of past abuses, we are bearing fake fruit so
when we ask in His name we waiver because our faith is not strong “But let him ask in faith,
nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with
the wind and tossed.” James
1:6 We cannot be healed with superficial fruit, we must trust in the
Lord with faith that He has our best interest in His heart.
Are you ready for the next phase of your healing journey? Ask the
Holy Spirit for his leading and guidance to trust in Christ through your
healing journey. The Bible says “Trust in
the Lord with all thine heart; and lean
not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall
direct thy paths.” Proverbs
3:5-6
Should you desire to read more
about the Holy Spirit and want to begin a real personal relationship with the
Holy Spirit and our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I invite you to the following
webpage where you can find a free PDF book on the Holy Spirit by author Helmut
Haubeil in any language Steps
To Personal Revival
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